scanner’s rant
Those who’ve watched me in these past two years take my professional life from software engineer to system administrator to documentary filmmaker to raw primal nutritionist and cafe chef, never really abandoning any one of the above, probably have either given up on understanding my trajectory (oh, and did I mention I’m in a marketing apprenticeship program now too?) or see something of themselves in the strange fractal pattern of pursuits.
Whatever the case, the whirling dervish of my life shows no signs of approaching greater simplicity. Even against my own better judgement, and of course to the chagrin of those who wish I would settle down, my pattern continues thusly: Learn, Try, Teach, and Leave.
I have no boyfriends or girlfriends anymore. Opportunities abound; I approach all with perfect honesty, and I tell them: “I don’t have time to mess around.” Ahh if only I appeared my own age so I could quit disappointing the excessively young / romantic / naive. Love does not conquer all, and it most definitely does not conquer time, or grant proposals, or iptables.
There is but one self-help book on the market I have found to help me in my pursuit of refusing to choose just one path, one career, one lifestyle. It’s called Refuse to Choose. In all my time on this earth, I have learned but one great truth about myself: I learn fast; I burn fast. A linear or single-focused life is not my path.
“What are you going to do with the rest of your life?”
Live the hell out of it.
